Going Private....

Yesterday the girls and I went to the park to get some fresh air and smell the wildflowers. We girls needed a breather in what has become so far the most difficult week of our lives.




It was so odd to see almost two completely different worlds. Ours filled with fear and sadness and the one around us blooming with life and sounds and smells. We enjoyed watching a little squirrel fix his gaze upon, then hop over and play with one of the flowers.




It was such a juxtaposition. One I was completely out of tune with. One I never wanted to know or feel but there I was...right in the middle of it. In one moment, one text, can change your life. Break your heart and turn everything you know inside out.




I stumbled upon a scripture yesterday that I often heard but never read myself, Ecclesiastes 3. It says there is an appointed time for everything under the heavens. A time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to wail and a time to skip about. (I did my wailing yesterday until I literally was unable to breathe!)




A time to throw stones away and a time to bring stones together, a time to embrace and a time to keep away from embracing.
A time to rip apart and a time to sew together, a time to keep quiet and a time to speak.




Everything he has made pretty in its time. Even time indefinite he has put in their heart...




Recently some things have come up that I really need to keep private. I'm deciding between opening a new blog to diary this and just continuing to diary here. For my sanity I need to put my feelings in words. I think it will help me sort out my feelings. Whatever they may be. I have a couple of posts written but still in draft until I go private.




If you would like to follow me through this you can email me or leave your email address here. I'm warning you it will be a roller coaster but I know many have been in this position and I need to find some support through this.
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